Fell off the wagon

The writing everyday wagon that is. I had good intentions again and then… well… I got distracted again by life. I’m still squeezing in moments of writing for NaNoWRiMo amidst the every other day yoga sessions and short runs or walks outside. The biggest thing has been trying to reduce my sugar consumption. I’m an addict and it’s so hard to stop eating refined sugars and processed food! Argh!

I know how important nutrition is conceptually but it takes so much time! Just like self-care practices are so important and so time consuming. Just brushing and flossing my teeth twice a day is a self care hygiene act that is so important yet takes precious time and energy. I hardly even take time to shave my legs and I certainly obviously don’t get my hair cut very often either. Yet where does all my time go?

My work schedule is flexible and I spend plenty of time on my business with hours that aren’t billable. Planning ahead, trying to get organized and I still don’t seem to be able to keep up. And I’m always rushing!

why? I’m trying to take more time to take care of myself better since I’m not getting any younger yet I struggle with guilt. My husband and I just went to some hot springs in Oregon for our anniversary and only spent three days and two nights away. It was lovely and a long drive but worth it yet now I feel behind again. I want so badly for time to feel like a friend instead of a fleeting ferocious f**ker who is making me age un gracefully.

Stubborn as am I keep grasping at the moments and reevaluate what is really most important. Health is wealth, without health wealth is an evil necessity to try and heal so I must stress less, eat better and exercise more balancedly. Also, life is short and goes by quick for all of us because we take our tomorrow’s for granted. Nothing is certain but change and the fact that it can all be game over in an instant.
Its all about how we spend our time then isn’t it? And I desperately want to make more time and take more time to take care of myself and spread the love to everyone else in this magical world. Health is so vital to the enjoyment of this life and we all deserve the time it takes to make and eat good food and do health promoting things, right?
So I’ll still write, I’ll get back on that wagon and keep trying to finish my novel idea in a reasonable period of time. And I’ll make time to do the activities that keep my body and mind in shape. I will find the balance necessary somehow. Thanks for reading my ramble.