I’m drinking really strong tea made with whole cone Amarillo Hops and organic raw honey. Yes, I’m seeking the intoxicating relaxation that often comes with consuming a large amount of hops. The taste is bitter and sweet with a spicy afterburn that runs from my tongue all the way into my belly. It’s good and not for everyone.

So it’s been awhile since I’ve posted here… I know and do you know why? Life is complicated, full of distractions and when the weather is good I just want to be outside. I’ve been wanting a garden and planting things this year… speaking of… I need to get some hops to plant out there too. And… the hops from the tea are in me and I feel the sweet body bliss easing the aches away.

Yay! Now what was I going to say? I just had my 36th birthday and life is tripping me up. I thought I knew what I was doing and where I was going but it turns out there’s no way of knowing how it’s all going to work out. I just hope it’s better than I can imagine and sooner than I think. Because sometimes this life makes me want to drink again. Over 3.5 years sober and my brain has changed but a lot of my habits are still the same. I’m constantly going, my mind flowing with ideas and dreams while I feel like I’ll burst at the seams, so I seek ways to relax and get out of my own head. And now it’s time for bed.

But I love to write so I should make it a goal to spend more time putting thoughts into form. I will try. I will do. Thank you.