I fully admit I am afraid to commit to doing another full marathon but part of me really wants to do it in spite of my fears. I’ve only done one full one once and I like the idea of doing another but I understand the amount of time and dedication to training it takes. 

There is so much I hope to accomplish this year. I wonder if this fits with my overall plans. I’m scared and excited. I may need to spend some time and write it all out then contemplate the big picture. 26.2 miles seems like a long way to run but then I think of all those ultrarunners out there who do that distance for training runs. How do they fit it all in to their lifestyle?

If they can do it so can I? But then I wonder why... why do we run? Why do I run? I love the benefits of being a runner for sure but why do I want to push myself to go farther? And faster? Why do I always want to do more? Pushing myself to see how much I can accomplish, how far past my comfort zone am I willing to go? There must be a good reason for all of this.

Isn’t that the beauty of being alive?